Today I feel sad. Realizing not all is happening with a smile. Summer was nice, but did not really enjoy it as intended. A lot has happened with my design development, had little time to write about it because lack of passion.
I noticed joi de vivre is fading because my dream is fading. Day to day I see another day passing by and lost. I need to find that field of dreams a farm land any farm land will due, but only one requirement it is not too far from work place since work is the only true survivor here that can fuel my other passion to by the things I need to build with, but even this is fading because I find my time indoors when the sun is out. I need to spend more time out in the early rays of light and less time in the cavern I call home. A mild depression is setting in when I give a though of moving as the insecurities of acting out to make a move to the north for the field of dreams.
I look at my pass achievements and find them amazing, though they are stagnant in time because the joi de vivre is fading and so is the dream. It seems little positive is recorded here and make me sound like a depress individual. The truth is probably I am just like many who ride the roller coaster of life.
I find it hard to go outside with no one to share event with, maybe this is where the joy of living has faded away.
I need to be freed from this sadness in my heart. What if…
